Dear younger Self,
You’re in pain right now for many reasons. Your mom is in bed, depressed. You’re cleaning the house and decorating because you just want a normal life. You’ve spent your own money on flowers for the garden. You do all of the cleaning. It’s not your job. It doesn’t matter if the house is a little messy. What matters is that you have a home and you have food. Nothing is ever good enough for you. You always want more. Why aren’t you grateful? Other people have it a lot worse than you. Yes, your parents can be toxic but they kept you alive. I know you see that your friends have “normal” lives, but do you really want to be like everyone else? Does it matter if we have a brand new kitchen or a fancy new car? No, it doesn’t. What matters is that they love you. They love you very much. You’re going to be okay because you’re strong, smart and capable. You can do anything. I know it’s been hard. You had to grow up quickly. You’ve had to worry about things that a little girl shouldn’t have to worry about. But, it’s made you stronger. You’ve had a lot of bad experiences but you’ve also had a lot of good experiences. Try to remember the good experiences. Be thankful. You may have times where you feel like you’re in a rut, it will be temporary. Keep going. Strive for more. You’re doing a good job.
You Only Need You 